Wish I knew then what I know now. ⠀
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Another year older, another year wiser… another hard lesson learned.⠀
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While I am super grateful for the overwhelming amount of love and birthday wishes, I still feel guilty for not being fully there for everyone mentally and physically. ⠀
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Heartbreak isn’t just mental… it physically makes your body ill, too.⠀
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Stolen from an article from @EliteDaily, written by @GigiEngle, “The Pain Is Real: 8 Scientific Effects Heartbreak Has On The Body”:⠀
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– Your brain thinks you’re physically hurt.⠀
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– You either get really heavy or really thin.⠀
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– You’re swimming in stress hormones.⠀
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– You’ll be depressed.⠀
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– Withdrawal is real.⠀
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– You’ll wonder who you are.⠀
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– You’ll want to be alone, but you’ll need to avoid it.⠀
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– This won’t be the last time heartbreak hits.⠀
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So, I’m experiencing alllll THAT bs, AND building my business, AND struggling with feeling helpless while there is so much needless suffering and pain in the world (ESP. in the USA, thanks to our narcissist-in-charge Donald Trump ?).⠀
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I just wanted to express that because I want you all to know that I see you, and I feel you, and I’m grateful for you… please do not see my current lackluster emotions to be a personal reflection of you, because it is absolutely not! ⠀
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The truth is, I fell for a narcissist (they lack empathy entirely…) who has turned me into another victim (which I absolutely REFUSE to be), but I am still processing all the physical and emotional trauma from it… ⠀
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On the bright side, I have found an overwhelming amount of support and love from other women who I would have not originally thought to be welcoming to me with open arms… ⠀
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We are often ashamed of our traumas, but that’s actually what bonds us the most.⠀
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So thank you again to everyone for your love and support. Right now, I am working on being the best I can be, bringing more love and light into this dark world for EVERYONE’s benefit… but I have to take care of myself first. ?
